I have been reading a friend's blog lately, and I have decided that I, too, have thoughts. Deep, meaningful thoughts that are begging for an audience other than myself! Thoughts that are scaling the walls of my inner dialogue, yearning to be free!
Well, maybe not. However, I do keep journals although I don't write in them often. I do enjoy going back and rereading what I've written and remembering where I was in my life when I wrote the particular entry. Perhaps that's what I want to get out of this new blog-- a record of some of those crazy thoughts.
I decided to name my blog, 'Present Tense'. This actually has its origins in a book I read many years ago, but one that impacted me greatly. The book is 'The Prophet's Way: Touching the Power of Life' by Thom Hartmann. It is a kind of Christian mystic book about getting closer to God (always deferred as G-d, because it is irreverent of us to actually type it out completely) and living the best and most meaningful life you can. As cheesy as it sounds, I took away some great lessons from it. Not that I've mastered the lessons, but I do every once in a while attempt them.
One of the lessons was living in the present-- always being conscious of the "now", because you can't truly live your life in the past or in the future and appreciate God's gifts all around us in the present. I have always struggled with this. I am terrible at being still. I can't forget about things that I need to do, and worse still, I can't stop planning every single detail of my life. In other words, despite how laid back I may appear, I am a control freak to the highest degree, which makes it difficult to appreciate the present.
When you can slow down and appreciate the "now" you really do find it powerful and gratifying. I think perhaps this blog is my attempt to live in the "now" and appreciate it by recording it. I know I have heard many times that the present is all we have, but I find it difficult to live my life that way.
What am I appreciating right now?
How about-- the oscillating fan I have in my living room is so dirty I don't think I can stand it one second longer.
Stay tuned.
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